I am so very sorry for your loss. May you find comfort in the Bible's hopeful message where it reveals that God's purpose is to restore the dead to life by means of a resurrection to a paradise earth, where sickness and death will be no more. "The hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice and come out." - John 5:28,29. I hope that you find comfort through the power of heartfelt prayer to God and your wonderful memories during this difficult time.